When You Can't Stop Choosing What Hurts,

Breakthrough Begins with the Unconscious

This portal was distilled from lived descent.

From walking through the underworld of my own complex mind, body, and sexual trauma, and from years of studying the deeper why behind different types of realities — the work before you was born.

It was birthed from an unintended lived fusion of:

• Jungian descent work
• identity-level somatic re-embodiement and integration (feeling like your new self)
• zodiacal archetypes
• and riding planetary shadow cycles

Each month follows a subconscious theme rising in the collective, so you move with archetypal currents already pulling old patterns to the surface.

The same way the moon pulls the tides.

This is a 12-month underworld initiation mapped to collective subconscious energy through the cycle of zodiacal archetypal currents, deep exploration of the personal psyche where one uncovers their personal patterns and core wounds, and a newly built somatic blueprint for feeling and rippling the shift out into your new timelines.

Designed to dissolve the subconscious patterns your conscious mind has never been able to change...

Your New Self is Asking You to Stop Unserving Patterns of The Past

These are aspects of the unconscious self, hidden beneath awareness in the subconscious, that will be identified and released in the upcoming shadow work portal.

• Repeating relationship loops that give soulmate…but are rooted in unhealed attatchment wounds & core love wound fractures.
• Acting from emotional triggers that hijack your nervous system and pull you out of your power, causing overeactions and embarassing behaviors.
• Unserving shadow behaviors that sabotage the life you want and keep you from creating it.
• Subconscious self-abandonment disguised as loyalty, empathy, or being “forgiving” in connections that do not serve your highest.
• Sacred feminine parts of you still stuck in survival, fear, over-functioning, or seeking validation — shaped by trauma or childhood imprints.

Uncover and understand who your authentic self is — beneath all of the trauma conditioning. This is a cellular rebirth and restructuring on a fundamental level.

The portal initiates

the kind of

transformation

that becomes your

new baseline frequency.

This happens at the

identity-level — through deep shadow work followed by integrative somatic embodiment.

So you finally feel and embody — in real time — the new person you’ve been trying to "affirm" yourself into becoming.

The Journey You'll Take

A descent into your core wounds — so 2026 becomes your rebirth year, not another tragic repetition. These patterns weren't your fault — but dissolving them is your power.

Clear the emotional debris from childhood - 2025

The patterns formed early in childhood that keep you repeating the same heartbreak experiences will no longer have a home in your body in 2026. Who would you be without all of that density weighing you down?

Untangle the archetypal stories you’ve been unconsciously living out

You’ll uncover the mythic patterns (ex: the Pleaser, The Martyr, Maiden, the Invisible One) that have been quietly scripting your self-worth. This is where you stop living a story you didn’t choose… and step into one you consciously author.

Meet the wounded parts of you that have been shaping your behaviors

Instead of doing things and now knowing why, you’ll finally meet the forgotten, hidden, and fragmented parts of you that have been calling for integration. This is the root of it.

Rebuild your internal template from the inside out

You’ll begin 2027 with a nervous system coded with safety and resonance....
an identity that feels grounded in personal strength… and a feminine essence that feels freed instead of fragmented.

The Birth Of It All

Instead of living from my trauma self, I began choosing from radical alignment with my highest good. But first, I had to get through my shadow self. The self that kept me small and chasing scraps.

My Story

I didn’t arrive here through theory —
I arrived here through initiation.

There was a time when I lived far from myself — when my body moved through the world coded in a disconnection that came from traumatic freeze and looping. My light was still present, but it was dimmed beneath layers I hadn’t yet come to validate and acknowledge.

What followed was a descent I never planned to take.

A slow, undeniable awakening into the truth of my own patterns that were running my life…

The places where my nervous system clung to the old outdated belief systems passed down through generations…

The versions of me that were born from survival instead of sovereignty....

And in that underworld something ancient rose in me. Not a method. Not a mindset shift.

A return.

A return to my own radiance.
A return to a feminine essence unbound by old contracts.
A return to a nervous system that no longer braced, but open to life.

I emerged with a clarity I once thought belonged only to other women:
eyes that held light again,
a face that reflected presence instead of adaptation, a self that felt unmistakably mine.

This portal was born from that reclamation.

It’s a path for women who feel the whisper…
the quiet, inner knowing that their life is ready to shift from the inside out.

A path for those who sense that their next evolution isn’t about becoming someone new— but remembering the woman they always were before the world reshaped her.

If your body is already saying yes,
this is your own return beginning.

Past Self | Survival Mode

Two years ago, in Costa Rica, during my abusive breadcrumb relationship. The people in my life reflected my own disconnection with my self-love and sovereignty....until through sheer will and desire for change I walked through the underworld of my own psyche. This portal is a result of that ascension.

Current Self | Queen Of My Shadows

Now, after some of the deepest, most intense, shadow work I've ever experienced for two years straight. I bumbled around in the dark, looking under every rock, around every corner, holding every wounded part of myself until something special happened.

I didn't just go in, I went all the way through. This is what most modern shadow work "experiences" don't understand. You don't just go in.

To rebirth fully, you need go all the way through.

Who Stepping Through The Portal Is For

If you are saying:

"The way I’ve survived is not the way I’m meant to live."

This is your space. You've said the phrase of reclamation. You could go back to the old you, but either way the pain is there. So you get to choose, do you want:

The pain of stagnation?

Or the pain of rebirth?

If your soul feels called to rebirth on a deep level, then your time is now, and your tools are here. Trust the process and believe in the outcome.